I'm Back :)

[Antoinette]

Thanks G_I !! And thanks for the sig reminder too, I completely forgot

[G_I_John]

No problemo

I just hope you'll be able to share one or two more pictures of your 2020's before they're gone

I know there's the smaller, softer version to look forward to in the future, but your current figure is rather breathtaking

[ChrisR1]

Great to see you post here again, Antoinette. It sounds to me like you're still on the right track - your quest is for big sexy breasts; when they start causing you discomfort, both physically and otherwise, that makes things a little less sexy... hence I think you're still on your way to your goal with your planned reduction.

Cheers

[Fedde]

I really hate to hear that other people make you reduce your boobs. I wish you all the best ! You go girl !

[ThinWhiteDuke]

I think a part of the big, fake boob fetish - at least to me - is that it takes a remarkably strong person to be able to realize the goal.  Of course there's the other direction, too, where it can feed into a bimboization fetish.  Call it the Madonna/whore complex of my own breast fetish if you will.  Whatever, that's my problem not yours.

The point is that you have always struck me as someone with amazing strength of character and great determination.  These are qualities that I find way more attractive than I do a giant pair of plastic things.  I guess in my own, somewhat retarded way I'm trying to say that I see this decision as another expression of this great spirit of yours - just as much as I see/saw your original quest in much the same way.  

You went after what you wanted and it turned out that it didn't work out as you thought or hoped it might.  People can be such dicks at times.  It really bothers me that anyone perceived as being "different" (ie: outside of the strictest possible puritan mindset) is treated with such cruelty.  Still, to stick with it out of some sense of stubbornness or, worse, fatalistic martyrdom that negatively affects those around you would be out of character from what I can tell.  

Or, the short answer: I think you've made the right decision and hope you are happier with the outcome this time.

[Verbotenbruste]

antoinette,

simple straightforward answer: your body, your choice!  supporting you in whatever you decide.  please keep us posted.

[USER_2381_NOT_FOUND]

Don't worry....
Be happy!

Don't worry,
Be happy now.

Doo, doo doo do doo,
Do do do do do do dooooo......

[MasterDragonfly]

Heya Antoinette!  

Please don't fret too much about the fans of your megaboobs vs your personal needs to find the right size which brings you the appropriate comfort needed, both physically and socially.

Who knows, maybe you'll be able to take advantage of switching from over the muscle to unders.  If that's crossed your mind, that is.

I think once you do find the perfect silicones in the size you want, they'll have enough natural swoop to them that you'll find the unwanted attention will drop off dramatically.  Or at least, you'll be able to dress them down more easily than you can presently.

Not sure what else to say here, other than to please keep us apprised of your research, finding the right surgeon, finding the right implants, moving forward with the surgery, etc.

Oh, and before I forget, I wanted to mention that it was way cool discovering your website way back when, reading it from start to finish, and subsequently see you realize your goals.  Just consider the "right-sizing" to be another step or two along this path.  

Cheers.

[lovefakeboobs]

Antoninette
I am sure that it might seem disappointing to down size. Its your body and if you have scaring in your breasts its  better that you go down a few steps and then some back up. You looked great with 20 20's and you looked great with 1000's I am sure you are still going to look great with 800 sils.

[derf79]

As said before, it was the thrill of reading your earlier site and all your dreams of being huge and the inspiration of being able to do what you did. You have all the respect and admiration in the world from derfsgurl and I no matter what the size. You're still one of the most awesome women we've come to know, through your posts here, and hope you do stick around. I hope you know that you have fans, and friends, for life here. Be true to yourself and that's all you can be. You rock!

[VonAether]

Everyone else has already said things far more eloquently than I could, but I still feel the need to chime in. Am I a little disappointed? Sure. This is, after all, a site dedicated to breast expansion.

But you are more important than your breasts. Your happiness is paramount. You have my respect and admiration for daring to get the implants in the first place, just because you wanted them. I'm another one who's been following you from your original website however many years back. You must have known the reaction you'd be getting from people, particularly if you're not involved in the adult industry, but you did it anyway.

If it's time to go down, you have my support. Just don't forget to keep on posting pictures of your new soft and juicy boobs, okay? (:

Pity you're on the opposite side of the continent.

[Djoser]

Well Antoinette i've become more and more interested in the girl's attitude regarding breast size than the size itself. Is good to know you like to spend your time here. We will always love you.  

[Beastwheat]

namaste antionnette do what is best for you

[rtpoe]

Hi Antoinette!

Rather a bummer with the CC issue. Seems like your body isn't going along with your mind. Here's hoping the reduction is smooth and painless.

We still think you're great. At least, I do. There's more to a beautiful woman than breasts, and you've got plenty!

[malquerido]

baby where are u?
i miss u

[destylouknow]

Okay Antoinette, if you're going to get rid of the huge tits, then at LEAST take tons and tons of pictures and videos of them for us first. You'd spread so much happiness if you did that.

[Tsunami2k]

glad to see you again **waves**

[MasterDragonfly]

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destylouknow said:
Okay Antoinette, if you're going to get rid of the huge tits, then at LEAST take tons and tons of pictures and videos of them for us first. You'd spread so much happiness if you did that.

Well this didn't sound the least bit self-serving, did it.

Nice try at the spin, though.

[jhnsmt]

Hi Antoinette,
Great you are back!
Gosh we were worried because you was not posting for a while!!

It’s very sad you are suffering from capsular contraction!!
Please don’t feel sorry for the procedure you have to do, because you’re health and well being is most important!! Without any doubt !

Don’t be afraid to let  us down, because you can’t let us down !
You finally achieved your goal, after a long and though road and that is a real accomplishment ! You can be proud of that! Many others won’t have that focus and dedication to achieve their dreams!

On the other side, 800cc is still big !! Maybe not in your or in the BEA perception, but in average day to day live it is still very big !

And when you realize your plans of 1200-1500 cc, you will be huge again !
I think the 800-1200-1500 silicones will fit you better with much more comfort  than the previous 2020cc max-max- maximum  overfilled saline’s!

That you have to reduce your breasts because of complications is a real bummer of course, but it is very very sad that it turned out that it is not possible for you to live a quite normal live with your beautiful big breasts!!
And when it even becomes scary and threatening, I can understand it becomes too much for you….. Your safety and well being is much more important.!!
Although I still don’t understand why you received such a massive negative reactions to your breasts. OK I can imagine you receive some nasty and negative comments, but that it is so massive, I cannot understand.
Maybe it is the conservative attitude of the people in the place you live…………?

Nevertheless, please keep us posted about your future procedures, because you are a bright, brave, nice, honest, beautiful and unique person , so we don’t want to lose you here at the “real world BEA” forum!

Finally, can you tell us a little bit about the scary and threatening situations you were in?
Just one real live example of what a big busted girl has to endeavour?
And  in the flood of negativism and prejudice, was there maybe once a positive or funny remark about your breasts?
(I like to know, sorry, I’m a curious guy ;-) )

Keep us posted & get well soon !

[suzy1qtee]

Hi Antoinette,

Sorry to hear about your CC and down sizing but as always your health and well being are the most important thing. I just know you would be happy with 1300 -1500cc and I think you would get away with it in public as well. I can only imagine your frustration, that despite living in the "land of the free" you can not get the size you want.

I also attrach some attention but people just look and sometimes whisper amoungest themselves, mostly women! I cant believe the treatment you have had to put up with. I have never experianced anything like it here and hope I never do.

I will be thinking of you. let us know how you go.

Lots of love Suzy

[Antoinette]

WOW you guys, thank you soooooo much for the support !! Seriously, you don't know just how cool it is to come on here and read positive things said about me after dealing with so much bullshit from assholes in day-to-day living.

Well, something very strange.....I announced my plans of downsizing to all of my friends and a whopping 3% of them were encouraging of the idea! Almost all of them are AGAINST me downsizing to 800cc ! And these are the very same friends who hate my 2020cc! They actually think that 800cc will be too small for me and that I'll be complaining about them being too small the moment I get them. They probably just don't want to hear my complaining lol. They all think I should downsize to around 1500cc...but anything less and I will be unhappy, *their words*! They say they know me and they know how I feel about big boobs, and to just not go all the way down to 800cc, blah blah bla

So now I'm just confused and second guessing myself . I thought I was pretty sure about the 800cc, but now that everyone is giving me their opinions about it, I'm starting to get second thoughts. I just think it's weird that these don't-go-down-to-800cc-but-to-1500cc-opinions I'm getting are from the 2020cc haters.

What to do, what to do *sigh*....

Last week I went to a club...my crew stayed there until it closed and we were outside standing around talking when someone I knew asked me to go back in the club really quick because the club managers wanted to talk to me. Well I met the managers and they were in awe I guess because they had never seen boobs there as big as mine (their words). They asked me if they could take a picture and told me that I had free drinks for life there...they were that much in awe!! So that was really cool lol !

[Antoinette]

Suzy, it's really nice to hear from you. Thanks so much for your post.

How are you doing? Are you loving your boobs? You look so amazing.

I'll definitely keep everyone updated, take care

[ChrisR1]

You can' please all the people all the time, so just please yourself.
Of course, you definetely please everyone on this site with your pix - thanks for posting

[Antoinette]

jhnsmt...thanks so much for your post! When I think about the craziness that I've encountered because of my implants, I'm shocked too. I just can't believe it and wasn't even expecting it to be this bad. I was expecting some type of negative attention of course, but definitely not this extreme.

One of the scarier situations I was in, and just recently too ......I like to go to the beach early, early in the morning for a nice brisk walk/jog...I don't go every morning, just some mornings. Well, after awhile I started to notice a guy there....everytime I'd go he'd walk the same path I always took, and he'd constantly be watching me. After a few times going and seeing him there watching me, I got kinda nervous and stopped going for a couple of weeks (I went to another beach). I went back to my usual beach in the early morning a couple of weeks later and I didn't see him for a week or so. But after about a week, there he was. He never came up to me and spoke, he just always stood back and watched me.

A couple days later I went back to that beach for my regular morning walk/jog. I didn't see him at first....then towards the end, when I was just about done, here he comes walking up but with 2 other guys. He had on a big hooded sweatshirt with the hood up and the 2 other guys had hats on. I was thinking to myself oh shit, I got real nervous and I just had a really bad feeling. To get to my car though, I had to go past them. So I started walking really fast, I looked down to the ground, and just when I was a little bit in front of them, about to go past them, one of them said damn what's up sexy. I didn't say anything and just walked past. I think the same one said oh it's like that? I kept on walking and looked back to see if they were still walking the other way...wrong, they had turned around and were walking behind me. So I picked up the pace and just kept on walking faster. I looked back and they were closer to me.

I got to the steps that lead up to the parking lot where my car was and I started climbing up them real fast. One of the guys ran up behind me, went around my right side, went right in front of me and turned around real fast. I was SO freakin out, my heart was beating real fast and I stopped real quick. The bastard was smiling and he told me he liked the way I looked...I was like ya whatever and I tried to go around him, but he blocked me. At that point, the other 2 guys got up there and were behind me (we were still on the steps). I looked around real quick to see if I saw someone else but I didn't see anyone. They kept making comments about my boobs, my ass, etc....then one of them behind me took his finger or something and rubbed it up my back. I like jumped and tried to go past the guy in front of me again and he stepped to the side and blocked me again. I was like look dude I'm not interested, I gotta go now. He was just staring at me up and down with a smile. One of the guys in back of me came right up behind me, grabbed me and pushed up against my ass real hard....I freaked and I pushed the guy in front of me and tried to go past again, and he grabbed me and pushed me back down the stairs.

I totally freaked out, I started screaming at them to stop and let go, I kept trying to pull away from them but one guy was grabbing my arm. Another one grabbed my other arm and started trying to put his hand down the front my pants....one of them was grabbing on my boobs. I screamed real loud and thank goodness some guy came up from the other direction of the beach with his 2 dogs barking...he yelled hey or something. The 2 assholes let go of me and they all kinda backed up. One of them held my cell phone up and smiled at me. I don't know which one grabbed it out of my pocket.

Anyway, they ran the other way and the guy with the dogs came up to me. I was sooooo shook up, crying and everything. He called the cops, and stayed with me until they came. I was freaked out about what happened, and my stolen phone made it even worse. Stupid fuckers. I had everything on my phone.....tons of numbers, e-mail addresses, TONS of private pictures and videos of me, notes....fuck I lost a lot of shit on that phone.

Another scary situation.....I used to live by a hair salon and I was walking back home after getting my hair done (walking, not driving because it was so close to home) and some random guy came out of nowhere it seems, he started flirting with me, I said no thanks, and he literally started trying to kiss me, he was touching me all over and actually tried to unzip my jeans....ALL IN BROAD DAYLIGHT....it was in the evening, cars going by and everything. He finally let up and stopped attacking me once I started screaming my head off. He ran off and I was standing there in shock thinking to myself, what just happened?? It just happened so suddenly totally out of the blue.

So yeah, I have many many crazy stories that have happened to me

[Antoinette]

Thanks Chris, I appreciate that !!

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ChrisR1 said:
You can' please all the people all the time, so just please yourself.
Of course, you definetely please everyone on this site with your pix - thanks for posting

[ChrisR1]

Those are not cool situations - so sorry to hear about you having such a tough time - on the positive side, at least the situations didn't turn out worse.

[Antoinette]

Thanks and I agree, I'm very thankful they didn't turn out worse.

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ChrisR1 said:
Those are not cool situations - so sorry to hear about you having such a tough time - on the positive side, at least the situations didn't turn out worse.

[solvegas]

Antoniette, I just want to thank you for being you. Your pictures and your sharing of your life is greatly appreciated. I'm sorry about that beach stalker and it's a shame the cops didn't get there fast. It's unfortunate some men can't control themselves and simply try to be gentlemen. While I honestly wished you would not reduce, your happiness is more important. Good luck and thanks for sharing your adventures with us.  

[MasterDragonfly]

Geezus aitch keerist.  

Just reading that story of you on the beach made me want to go Tazmanian devil on their asses.

I trust you were able to give a full description to the cops, especially the hoodie guy who made a habit of showing up on the beach...?  It would be awesome if you were able to resume visiting the beach in a couple weeks, and have a plainclothes cop (female) hang out with you.  One who has a black belt in something.

I don't know whether your situation is geographic or what.  It could be that you're such a diamond in the rough that guys (the seedier types) will go out of their way to... well I honestly don't know what they were thinking.  What, that they'd get a date out of you?  Sheesh.

At this point, and regardless of whether you downsize to 800cc, to 1500cc, or just stay where you are now, I think you owe it to yourself to learn some basic self-defense.  And/or carry pepper spray (assuming it's legal in your area).

If you were within commuting distance of San Francisco, I would personally hook you up with a good friend/teacher who could show you a few basic but effective techniques.  He's also very street-wise, so he could probably give you a few other tips.  He also doesn't look the part of a martial arts badass, so assuming you were to run into a situation when he's around, he would be quite capable of quickly defusing the situation.  And assuming you were digging what he's teaching, you could continue with the student-teacher arrangement.

Other than that, I wish there were a Wen-do class near you.  It's a style taught exclusively by women for women, with a very fundamental 'survival' mindset going for it.  According to Wikipedia, Model Mugging is similar and might also be something you'd want to check out.  Scroll down to the bottom of that page to see a link to chapters which might be in your area.

And if you end up liking that, I'd suggest taking it to the next level, and get into some Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu.    You might have to modify some of the techniques to deal with your ample frontage, but you might even be able to use them to your advantage.  Strange though that may sound.

Please take this seriously, check out some sort of self-defense this week if you can.  Be aware that there will very likely be some schools which will want to get you to sign on long-term for lots of money.  You don't need that.  I've already told you what you need.  If they try to get you to join so that you can learn how to shout "hi-YAH!", that's not a bad thing, but it could take you quite a bit longer to get to the point where you can effectively defend yourself in the sorts of situations you've been in.  PM me (or e-mail me) for more info if you like.

[suzy1qtee]

Hi Antoinette

Just had a look at the photo you posted - and you look so fantastic!

I think your friends know you well and as a result they dont support your down sizing. I am sure they would always want the best for you but know you would be unhappy with 800cc. I totally support you resolving the CC problem but wish you had an option to get at least 1400cc

At 1300cc my boobs are soft, but not sloppy. I could have gone up another 100-200cc and got a bit more fullness but then I think I would have been back to were I was with my way to firm 1000cc HP's. So yes I am very happy. I think I got the right mix finally!!!!

I am sure when the time is right the way forward back to larger 1300-1500cc breasts using the appropriate type of implants will show its self. In the mean time enjoy your young family. You are so young another opportunity will come. I wish I was there to help you through this time.

Love Suzy

[DruulEmpire]

First, Antoinette (and suzy1qtee) -- looking good!

Second, Antoinette -- you do not deserve even one percent of this hounding you've had to put up with.  Don't know how applicable you think Dragonfly's advice is to your situation, but if it were at all possible, I wish you could mess up your harassers real good.

As nicely balanced a personality as yours deserves better than the wild imbalance of detractors and predators.

[Questor]

Antoinette:

Still looking beautiful and sounding great.  I join the others in expressing sorrow for the way some jerks are treating you.  I wish you only the best as you go through the decision process regarding your CC and new size.  Keep your chin up - your friends at the BEA will always be here to support you!

Q

[Moldova]

It's definately very sad that people's own disrespectful attitudes have forced you to change your mind on something that you clearly wanted very much for yourself and that made you happy.
Since you're having problems, perhaps a good solution would be to kill two birds with one size and downsize to something that whilst still big and beautiful, is easier to conceal under loose clothing or whatever, much like Suzy does. That way when you want to flaunt it, you can; but when you don't want to stand out so much, it's easier to be less conspicuous.

Either way, I hope whatever solution you opt for makes you happy.

[Beastwheat]

buncha freakin jackasses...I know where a really cool schematic for a stun glove is if you need it.  sorry you had it so rough but im glad you're okay

[siglerja]

Scary stuff, that's for sure. Most women with larger implants have the benefit of being in the industry and having access to body guards, so I can imagine that it can be pretty ridiculous. I'd say investing in a can of mace or pepper spray might not be a bad idea - Most creepy guys are going to become much less creepy when they're blind and throwing up. That, or find said bodyguard.

As always, you obviously have the support of the entire community here and the decision you make regarding your downsize should be yours, not an opinion pole. I hope you got the somewhat lengthy mail I'd sent about me and my GF and it helped, but when it comes down to it, decisions like this one take a lot of time and consideration. For the majority of people on a breast fetish board like this one to offer support either way speaks a lot to how most people will react, I'd say - I think the biggest factor is how you feel about it. Obviously, I'm with a lot of people here when I say we'd hate to see you downsize, but at the same time, you've been such a great read and story to follow for so many years, we feel like we've almost been a small part of it and would like to see you happy more than anything.

Good luck!