Miss Cynful Delirium

[volcano_ten]

Thanks to both solvegas and Thag13 for the nice compliments! They mean so much to me!
And for Thag13, I'm glad you're building a Highlander deck now, but isn't 100 cards too much for the game? I thought it was 60 cards per game session?

~Cyn

in this pic u can see the card of your compeTITor! Is not fair!

[Cynful_Delirium]

So.. I have somewhat bad news and some good news. The good news is that I now know what I want to do with my ta tas.. Bad news? I didn't have enough cash to get the breast job. Grrr..! I must confess something.. The reason I didn't get the implants is because the doctor didn't recommend I do that, by itself. He recommended a lift and implants. I have.. Sigh! Sagging breasts and the doc described it as if I were to just get implants, it would be like a "rock in a sock". So, I've got at least another 9, 10 months before I can go back for the surgery. I have to save quite a bit of money.. He did say however that I can get 800 cc implants that are overfilled to about 1,500 or so.. I think that's what he said. So, I'm thinking about going for it since I have to do it all the way anyway. So, solvegas, I may just get those 1,500's, but I'm not sure yet. Well, I have a bit of time to think about it.
Anyway, besides the no new ta tas, the trip was amazingly fun and I have some photos from it! Enjoy!

~Cyn

[Cynful_Delirium]

rackonteur, I guess I do have to make up for my misleading of what I posted.. So, I shall post more pictures of myself! volcano_ten, it'll be okay. I'll just keep posting pictures, that way, there's no competition. So, you guys, eat your hearts out! Hee hee!

~Cyn

[rackonteur]

*om nom nom nom!*

That red top/black skit combo is stunning! Must've drawn plenty of attention...

Sorry to hear you're not as close to your augmentation goal as you wanted to be -- and half delirious at the possible new goal!

[Cynful_Delirium]

Thank you, rackonteur! I can't remember if that outfit gathered much attention, but I'm glad it does here. Hee hee!
This is a picture that was taken in Solvang, CA. It's a little dutch town that I got to walk around in. It was so exciting to see a new country in Cali.! The windmills were beautiful and the temperature around town was nice too.
And yes, rackonteur, I'm about halfway to my breast augmentation goal. About halfway. I'm trying, day by day to get all the more closer to achieving new boobs, but looks like it'll just have to wait. I can build more anticipation up that way.

~Cyn

[Cynful_Delirium]

Oh yeah, I just remembered something about that picture that I posted last.. Look at the shoulders. Do you see those little diamonds? Well, they're in a cut out pattern that left me with a very interesting sunburn when I took the dress off. Looks like I have a very eccentric red tattoo! Hee hee!

~Cyn

[Thag13]

Thanks for posting....

In the long run, if you wait and get the total job, I think you will be happier...

Good luck either way and we will be cheering for you...

Best of luck....

[ROUNDandHEAVY]

So.. I have somewhat bad news and some good news. The good news is that I now know what I want to do with my ta tas.. Bad news? I didn't have enough cash to get the breast job. Grrr..! I must confess something.. The reason I didn't get the implants is because the doctor didn't recommend I do that, by itself. He recommended a lift and implants. I have.. Sigh! Sagging breasts and the doc described it as if I were to just get implants, it would be like a "rock in a sock". So, I've got at least another 9, 10 months before I can go back for the surgery. I have to save quite a bit of money.. He did say however that I can get 800 cc implants that are overfilled to about 1,500 or so.. I think that's what he said. So, I'm thinking about going for it since I have to do it all the way anyway. So, solvegas, I may just get those 1,500's, but I'm not sure yet. Well, I have a bit of time to think about it.
Anyway, besides the no new ta tas, the trip was amazingly fun and I have some photos from it! Enjoy!

~Cyn

Stunningly beautiful!

[ayrton]

I have to be honest with you Cyn,   I think your breasts a fine just the way they are.   They look nice and full and if you think they are saggy maybe the lift is all you need.   Sorry,   it is none of my business...

[rackonteur]

...Do you see those little diamonds?...

It would probably be wrong of me to point out that I didn't notice them, distracted as I was by the peeking out of the pink strap nearby...

[Cynful_Delirium]

I think I'll be happier getting the entire procedure done correct too, Thag13. I'm just not looking the humongous anchor scar the doctor has to do to get my breasts looking somewhat normal. I'm hoping after all of this is said and done, I will have normal breasts.. It's all I ever really wanted..
Thank you, ROUNDandHEAVY. Always a gentleman I'd say.
No, ayrton, there is no need to apologize. I appreciate your input! I was going to go to a different doctor in Oklahoma City, OK and I had to send pictures of my nude chest over e-mail to him. I just wanted to get a second opinion just in case I would have to go through as major of a surgery.. However, he said the exact same thing as my first doc said. He said, or actually the receptionist said, that it would be like a "rock in a sock" without the lift. I just don't like it because of the anchor cut they have to do.. The doc in Oklahoma did review the pictures that I sent him though. 'Said he refused to do it, I think.. Without the lift, I mean. He won't do my surgery without the lift. My luck, I swear.. But anyway, back on topic.. ayrton, trust me, I need the surgery. I wish I didn't, but I do. But thank you for the sweet compliment. I take those to heart.
And rackonteur, you're so bad!
Thank you everyone for all of those kind things that you posted. Like I told ayrton, I take those to heart.

~Cyn
 

[bignatslover]

Well the exciting thing is that the work you need is at least possible.

You could have a different problem - like a homely face.  There are people born with an ugly face and no amount of work seems to make it right.  At least you were born with a gorgeous face and the rest of you already perfect!

BigNats "Wait, are your nether regions perfect?" Lover

[Cynful_Delirium]

Well, bignatslover, I've had no complaints about my "nether regions". My downstairs is as tight as a lid on a new jar of peanut butter.
By the way, I thank you for those nice things you said about my face and what not. It was very sweet of you.

~Amber

[rackonteur]

...!

...I have never looked at peanut butter in that way before...

...and I will never see it another way again! 

[rackonteur]

Please someone tell me I didn't kill another thread on the interwebs...!

 

[Cynful_Delirium]

You didn't kill another thread, rackonteur. How could you ever think that..? I was just figuring out what else I could post on here that you guys may find.. To you liking.
I recently went to a comic con convention thingy. Although it was not thee official comic con that is held each year, it was still fun nonetheless. Cosplay costumes of many sexy women.. It twas heaven for me! Hee hee! I plan on going to the "Exotic Erotic Ball" soon. I can't wait to go. Drinking, flirting, costumes and other erotic things. Mmm.. I can't wait! Anywho, rackonteur, I like that post you posted about the peanut butter. It was really funny. Keep up the good work!

~Cyn

[luvdemwhoppers]

^luv the eye make up....red hot ...thanks

[Cynful_Delirium]

Well, thank you, luvdemwhoppers for the nice compliment. Honestly, I don't get too many notices on my makeup job and even though I'm not looking for compliments or anything, I wonder quite often if people like the way I do my makeup. I guess that answers it. Thanks again!

[volcano_ten]

:DI certainly like that I found some new friends here who have joined in, what an ego boost.

I've just returned from a quick road trip up to the "Oregon Caves". And yes, even though I have terrible fears of heights,(ledges, & drop-offs in the cave) and "ladder steps", I did complete the 900 steps in the caves!!
I've got new photos to share.

I like a lot this pic of you:

I am crazy for your legs (and bottom)

[ayrton]

I like that pic as well.   Your boobs look great in that tight shirt.   Nice and squeezable if you don't mind my saying. 

[rackonteur]

You didn't kill another thread, rackonteur. ... figuring out what else I could post on here that you ... may find.. To you liking. ... Cosplay...! Hee hee! ...flirting, costumes...Mmm..., rackonteur, I like ... you ... up ...!

~Cyn

Oh, don't worry about me -- it's just that I do that "thread kill" thing semi-often around the internet. I think it's mostly because I won't shut up. Eventually, mine will be the last comment...

"Drinking, flirting, costumes..." sound so sexy. But then again, you had me at cosplay.

I shall endeavor to "keep up the good work" and not turn that into a euphemism. ~salutes~*

Excuse me now, I have to do some checking around to see where the 'line' is, and if I've crossed it...






* Also, not a euphemism.

[bignatslover]

I wonder quite often if people like the way I do my makeup.

Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss we love it!

BigNats "But it helps that you are totally smoking hot as well" Lover

[Cynful_Delirium]

Hee hee! You guys are so sweet to me! I shall try to keep you guys up to date on everything including on just getting back from the official "Masquerotica" party yesterday! Oh yes, it was a sexually good time. Plenty of skimpy costumes, a few cross-dresser (mad tranny love!) and the place was packed with skits of an erotic nature and quite a few bands. It was a great time! I couldn't believe how much fun I had just being there!
The picture I'm posting isn't from the party though, it's from the first day of the trip, the very first picture that was taken and I kind of like it. Being a true American by waiting for a bus in the big city. The bus ride was my first and it was pretty fun, though a bit jerky with all the sudden stops.
And volcano_ten and aryton, I like that picture as well. It was right as I was losing major weight and I looked closer to a normally shaped woman. I thank you for your compliments. And rackonteur, don't worry about killing anything on here, I'm sure you won't. Plus, I don't see the line you may of, or may not have, crossed, you'll have to show it to me. bignatslover, thank you, thank you.
Well, I'm off for now. I have another Halloween party planned soon, so I can't wait to go there!

~Cyn

[rackonteur]

rackonteur, don't worry about killing anything on here, I'm sure you won't. Plus, I don't see the line you may of, or may not have, crossed, you'll have to show it to me.

Cyn, if you don't see that line, then I'm no longer worried.

I'll leave it to my own sense of propriety to lead the way. I think it looks like it's pointing in the right direction. Also, my sense of propriety ain't directionally bad, neither.

But if you ever need to, just slap me on the hand, or wherever seems appropriate.

[luvdemwhoppers]

Well, thank you, luvdemwhoppers for the nice compliment. Honestly, I don't get too many notices on my makeup job and even though I'm not looking for compliments or anything, I wonder quite often if people like the way I do my makeup. I guess that answers it. Thanks again!

You are very welcome. Speaking for myself, I like makeup. Lots of make up. Perhaps that's a fetish of mine. Dark eye shadow, fake eyelashes, heavy mascara, dark lipsticks. It's my bent, and certainly not for all. But you dun good gurl. Thanks for your reply and best wishes from LDW.

[Cynful_Delirium]

I basically just got back from a Halloween party in town over the weekend and it was a blast! I had so much fun dressing up and I even got to wear that Gothic gown I like so much again! I even.. Well, lets see if anyone notices, but there is something a bit different with this picture, wouldn't you say? Actually, I hope you guys can even see it. The picture was taken kind of far away..
And as for you, rackonteur, I'll punish you the way I see appropriate, if it ever comes to that. Hee hee! luvdemwhoppers, it's good to like makeup, I'd say. I enjoy putting it on and I love buying it, imaging what I can do with that piece next. It's been great fun over the past years doing my makeup and constantly improving my applying skills.

~Cyn

[jcastick]

The outfit looks great!

And is it the contacts we are supposed to notice?  Cause those look cool too! (If that is it of course.)

[Thag13]

Great photo and look for you.....thank you for taking the time to share.....

[rackonteur]

rackonteur, I'll punish you the way I see appropriate, if it ever comes to that. Hee hee!

~Cyn

*faints*

[Cynful_Delirium]

Yes! It 'twas the contacts that you were supposed to notice, jcastick! I'm very happy that you did. I love those contacts! That was the first time I had worn them into town, all day, and for a Halloween party that night, so they were in for a loooong while.
Thank you, Thag13 and jcastick, for the nice compliments. Whenever I get new pictures, I try to share them with all of you guys. I just want to get my new breasts sooner, rather then later.. It would be so nice to stop pretending I have nice, full, perky breasts, but for now, I'll just have to keep saving up.
rackonteur, you need to wake up.. The BEA needs you! Hee hee!

~Cyn

[Cynful_Delirium]

So.. A funny thing happened to me and has been happening to me for the past few months.. It starts out like it, y'see.. When I first came out to California, I wanted to make sure I was on a different kind of med for my birth control. No, I'm not pregnant-- that's what the pills are for; to prevent that sort of thing from happening. In no way am I promiscuous or anything like that, so don't get the wrong idea there either. I just like to predict my, um, cycles every month.
Anyway, I kept noticing that every once in a great while, something would happen to me and I think it's because of the new pills that I take, hence why I mentioned them at the beginning of this post. Anywho, so, my breasts felt a little heavy, heavier then usual and I thought, "It's just my imagination, they're fine". Well, the weight in my breasts didn't really go away and I was starting to really wonder what was going on because my breasts have always felt the same.
So, one night, I start inspecting my slightly heavier breasts and I noticed something.. Not only were they heavier, but they were leaking something from the now much puffier nipple.
I'll give ya a hint, it was creamy and white.
Still to my confusion, I thought to myself, "This isn't possible.. I think I may be lactating".
Long story short, I've become obsessed with it and I actually went out and bought an automated breast pump. Oh yes, I'm milking myself twice a day, every day. The only bad part about it is that I'm leaking throughout the day. I almost need nursing pads because of how much comes out throughout the day.
Can you believe it though? I'm lactating and still not pregnant. Now if only I could hang a target near me and see if I can hit the target with my milk.. That'd take true talent. Hee hee!

~Cyn

[ROUNDandHEAVY]

 

[Cynful_Delirium]

Whoa! I didn't mean to kill you by lactation! I didn't mean to kill you at all, ROUNDandHEAVY.. But it is true.. I leak milk almost all day and it gets all over my Victoria Secret bras. In fact, I think I actually have to go pump my heavy boobs right now. The only sad part is.. Well, I milk them about twice a day and my nipples get huge that I can barely  hide them beneath my bra! It's kind of exciting for me too, I'm thoroughly enjoying it.
That reminds me! I have a question for all you guys out there. Has any one of you had a lactating girlfriend that started lactating for no reason? I'm seriously confused as to how this started! Let me know!

~Cyn

[bignatslover]

Cyn there might be guys here who know the answer, but I don't know for sure why that is happening to you.  If the lactation is exactly coinciding with when you switched your type of contraceptive pill, then I think you've found your cause.  

There also might be a delay in responses because some guys reading what you wrote will simply need to go take time off and masturbate all day thinking about it.  I wish I were kidding.

Most cases of spontaneous lactation occur in people who have had at least partial or full pregnancies, but there are certainly exceptions.  I believe our own BEA princess RandomX has induced non-pregnancy lactation simply by taking milk-stimulating pharmaceuticals (also known as galactagogues).

Whatever it is, I hope you are feeling well and are more happy than sad about it.  Obviously on a fetish level a lot of men will be thrilled to hear about this.  Again, you might not get a lot of responses because it is difficult to type when one's erection is suddenly in the way of the keyboard.

[ayrton]

As the Stones said...."If you want to,  you can leak on me".   I must say,  the idea of you lactating is pretty hot.