Miss Cynful Delirium

[solvegas]

Reading these last few posts where you are lactating is hotter than the sun's surface. Have you any idea of the volume ? Is it increasing as time goes by or have you stabilized at a certain level ? What if any has been the cup size increase of your breasts ? A fantasy of mine is where a woman has lactation in the begining and then has mammary hypertrophy. That's fine in a fantasy world but not so good in the real world. Have you consulted a physician ? Anyways, you are a treasure. 

[rackonteur]

Cyn, I did a quick google search for 'spontaneous lactation without pregnancy' and the first thing I read was that if it is induced by a hormone imbalance (e.g. the pill), it can lead to sterility. I have no idea how accurate/trustworthy that is, but I think the bottom line is that you should start reading up on this condition and find a doctor you can talk to -- just so you know what's what and where you stand.

As for me, I'm standing waaaaayy over here where the guys that dig this kind of story can't reach me, since I'm bringing reality to the table (or trying to, anyway).

Health first.

[Cynful_Delirium]

Wow, so many posts to respond to! I really appreciate all of the things you guys are offering to me as far as answers go. I had a feeling it had something to do with my birth control pill, but I may be to blame besides that.. Because when I first started lactating, it was just a little, but I became so curious with what my breasts were doing and how they were growing that I started to milk myself and that's where the volume of milk grew and grew.
I get about 6 ounces a day and I'm afraid I don't know what my cup size before and after is. I wear around a 34 DD bra, and my breasts seem to stay pretty well in that bra. I say 'around a 34 DD' because I bought a bra too big and had to get it adjusted, which required cutting and sewing a smaller band. So, I think that's what I wear.
I am more happy about it then sad, definitely.. I just don't like leaking all over my bra! Hee hee!
But thank you, all of you, for the nice things you've said about this new experience and the facts that you guys gave me. I may just have to do a Google search sometimes to find out some things about my ever growing breasts.
Honestly, I didn't know about how big of a fetish it was with most guys. That's really cool to know though!

~Cyn

[Cynful_Delirium]

Hmm.. I was just thinking about something.. Do my breasts look bigger here? I mean, bigger then they normally do? I'm pretty sure I was lactating a lot that day too and I was looking through my pictures and happened to notice this one.. What do you guys think?

~Cyn

[rackonteur]

They look big. I can't tear my eyes away from it, to see if they are bigger than other pictures though...

[bignatslover]

Do my breasts look bigger here?

Well it could be the effect of horizontal stripes, I mean, yeah we're all calm, cool, collected and remain in control while we're purely objective and analytical about this and...

*composure snaps*

HELL YES LOOK AT THOSE KNOCKERS!  DAYUMN!  I WANT YOU TO SMOTHER ME WITH THEM!!

[solvegas]

Do my breasts look bigger here? I mean, bigger then they normally do? What do you guys think?

~Cyn

Sorry, brain overload .... turning to mush ....but seriously, I first noticed your legs and derriere and they look magnificent. Do your breast look bigger ? Well, I'll admit Chelsea and Beshine have changed my perspective of larger breasts so much that it can be difficult now to tell with other ladies. Perhaps some tactile inspection would be helpful. 

[ayrton]

I'm suddenly very thirsty.   They look great Cyn. 

[bignatslover]

I think prolactin would be the key hormone to check if you are wondering about causes of milk.  Doctors often check for prolactin during regular hormone profile tests.

One unfortunate side-effect of high prolactin is that it usually kills the woman's libido. 

But if you're just a horndog naturally, that can still be overcome. 

[Cynful_Delirium]

Aww, you guys! So many sweet things to respond to! Thanks to all about everything that was said. I was just busy taking some more pictures and thought I'd stop by my ever-growing thread to post a few.
bignatslover, that is terrible news about the killing of a woman's libido. I don't notice mine going down anymore then usual. I go through phases and sometimes I'm hornier then ever and other times, I just don't know what to do with myself. I've been pretty good as of late though, so hopefully that just isn't the case with me. Thanks for the info though.
Well, anyway, pics!

~Cyn

[Cynful_Delirium]

Speaking of being horny though.. I had the funniest dream this morning. I was at a gym that had a public shower and there was this woman inside of there, but I didn't know it when I walked in completely naked. We locked eyes and she was a busty blonde with tan skin. She smiled at me. We got to talking and pretty soon she was pulling out her vibrator and.. Whoops, I shouldn't really get into this NOW. Hee hee!
Come to think of it, since I'm talking about sexy stuff anyway, my horny-ness hasn't really changed that much, but since I've been lactating, I just feel sexier. Hence, the pictures for you guys. I really hope you all like them. I gotta go.. Thinking about that busty blonde.. Mmm! She can be in my dreams anytime she wants to be!

~Cyn

[ayrton]

Now I'm thirsty and want to take a shower!   And there is no question about me being horny. 

[bignatslover]

I have heard women can get just as horny as men.  They are just better at hiding it!

[Cynful_Delirium]

Yes, it's true.. I end up having the strangest naughty dreams, but I won't complain. Now, if I knew a woman that looked like that, I don't think I'd be able to look at her in the same way again, ever! Hee hee!

~Cyn

[bignatslover]

Cyn,

So excited for what 2012 may bring you.  You're lovely and so many people on here like you!

And you've been a very naughty naughty girl - go to my room.

[Cynful_Delirium]

Aww, thanks much, bignatslover! I hope New Years is great to you and everyone else here at the BEA and I hope the new year brings fun and new discoveries. Today is New Years Eve where I am and it makes me want to go out and drink.. Again. Oh yes, it's true. I had a fun-filled night of drinking at a local casino and I did some pretty heavy drinking, but I don't do it very often, so I believe I didn't really do anything too naughty.
Just to give a little update.. I think I'm still lactating, but it was becoming a little tiresome to pump day after day because I would do it for a long period of time.. So, I kind of gave up on it for now. If I have more time in my day then I will get back to it because I think I'm still lactating. I did enjoy it which may inspire me more to start it up soon. I was getting about four ounces a day. I pumped twice every day for a little while.
I found out that it's probably not my birth control causing it, too. I was bored one night and I started looking up some of my other medications side effects and one of the side effects of one of my daily pills was "leaky breasts". I assume that it meant they leak milk, but I don't know.
One thing I did like about pumping, or a few things, was it kind of hurt at first (that's not the part I liked), but then it would start to feel good, very good and I would want to do it even longer. Another thing I liked about it was when I was done pumping, my nipples were huge and still dripping with milk. I don't ever remembering having nipples so big! It was pretty cool!
Hmm.. Maybe I'll break out my trusty ol' breast pump soon, very soon. Who knows, all of that milky goodness may increase my breast size a little. I like that concept! Hee hee! Anyway, here is a picture of party night when I did all of my drinking.. What fun!

~Cyn

[Cynful_Delirium]

Wait a sec, I just caught that! Go to your room, eh? I guess I could do that. Can I bring my whip and wear another sexy, short, cleavage-revealing dress? Because I can do the heck outta all of those!

~Cyn

[bignatslover]

Wait a sec, I just caught that! Go to your room, eh? I guess I could do that. Can I bring my whip and wear another sexy, short, cleavage-revealing dress? Because I can do the heck outta all of those!

Oh yeah, you'd better bring all of that.  And I'm glad your GPS is working because I definitely said MY room!  And bring your personal best because I think I could outlast you all night long!!!

One thing I did like about pumping, or a few things, was it kind of hurt at first (that's not the part I liked), but then it would start to feel good, very good and I would want to do it even longer. Another thing I liked about it was when I was done pumping, my nipples were huge and still dripping with milk. I don't ever remembering having nipples so big! It was pretty cool!

*moans*
*moans*
*EXPLODES*
*eyes dart around looking for Kleenex box*
I couldn't last.   

 

[bignatslover]

Cyn,

Did your nipples stay huge?  I was amazed at their size!

Take your time answering this one, no hurry.

In fact, take your time describing it, with lots of descriptive words mmmmmmmmmmmmm

[Cynful_Delirium]

Well, bignatslover, I don't mean to brag, but I've always had kind of larger nipples. They stick out pretty far too. When I get cold.. Don't even get me started on that one! They're even bigger, which is so funny because they're cold. I don't get it.
After I would pump, I do remember my nipples looking moist and warm and big-- bigger then they normally are. I think my nipples would take up most of the area of the aureola (spelling? what I mean is the soft, pink area that surrounds the nipple) and my actual nipple would stick out much further then before. I think about three times the nipple as before, seriously. They, unfortunately, do not stay that size, but.. Y'know, now that I think about it, the more pumping I did, the bigger my nipples seemed to stay. Now, they weren't as big as right after I would take the pump off and some milk would drip out of the funnel-- but they were a little bit bigger the more I pumped and they seemed to stay there, yeah. The day that I quit pumping, they seem to just shrink little by little.
Just a little side note, when I mentioned how the white, creamy milk would slid down from the funnel and get all over my robe (because I usually pump with just my robe on), it would be really wet. Like, big dark spot for a while wet. It was even to the point to where my nipples would lactate when I didn't want they too. It's so hard to get that dark ring of milk out from the inside of your bra. Still, it's kind of cool though!
Did I answer your question?

~Cyn 

[ROUNDandHEAVY]

Um..yeah

[Poli]

lovely thread 

[bignatslover]

Well, bignatslover, I don't mean to brag, but I've always had kind of larger nipples. They stick out pretty far too. When I get cold.. Don't even get me started on that one! They're even bigger, which is so funny because they're cold. I don't get it.
After I would pump, I do remember my nipples looking moist and warm and big-- bigger then they normally are. I think my nipples would take up most of the area of the aureola (spelling? what I mean is the soft, pink area that surrounds the nipple) and my actual nipple would stick out much further then before. I think about three times the nipple as before, seriously. They, unfortunately, do not stay that size, but.. Y'know, now that I think about it, the more pumping I did, the bigger my nipples seemed to stay. Now, they weren't as big as right after I would take the pump off and some milk would drip out of the funnel-- but they were a little bit bigger the more I pumped and they seemed to stay there, yeah. The day that I quit pumping, they seem to just shrink little by little.
Just a little side note, when I mentioned how the white, creamy milk would slid down from the funnel and get all over my robe (because I usually pump with just my robe on), it would be really wet. Like, big dark spot for a while wet. It was even to the point to where my nipples would lactate when I didn't want they too. It's so hard to get that dark ring of milk out from the inside of your bra. Still, it's kind of cool though!
Did I answer your question?~Cyn 

*wipes forehead with cloth*
*gasps*
"Ummm, yeah!"
*looks for Kleenex box*
I'm gonna be late for work....

[ColonelGentlesir]

Hi Cyn!

I've been lurking on this thread for awhile and just wanted to say you've been looking great! Love the way you do your makeup and your outfits. Have you lost weight?

[Cynful_Delirium]

Aww! You guys are the best! It's always fun to discuss these kinds of topics with you guys. So much fun indeed! I especially love talking about lactation with you guys. Which, by the way, I'm still doing. It's gotten a little worse actually.. And by "worse" I mean, even more of that creamy fluid form that squirts out of my nipples from time to time.
And for ColonelGentlesir, you're very kind for noticing. I've actually lost just recently around one hundred pounds. It was a pretty hard journey, but, fortunately, I'm finished with my diet and loving life even more now that I can actually get around to exploring it.
I always try to keep you guys updated on my comings and goings with plenty of pictures.

~Cyn

[bignatslover]

Which, by the way, I'm still doing. It's gotten a little worse actually.. And by "worse" I mean, even more of that creamy fluid form that squirts out of my nipples from time to time.

Wha?  WOW!  What a fantasy come true - never-ending lactation! 

I always try to keep you guys updated on my comings and goings with plenty of pictures.

Well I'll keep you updated on comings.  Keep posting pics like that and a lot of other guys will be too! 

[Poli]

Aww! You guys are the best! It's always fun to discuss these kinds of topics with you guys. So much fun indeed! I especially love talking about lactation with you guys. Which, by the way, I'm still doing. It's gotten a little worse actually.. And by "worse" I mean, even more of that creamy fluid form that squirts out of my nipples from time to time.
And for ColonelGentlesir, you're very kind for noticing. I've actually lost just recently around one hundred pounds. It was a pretty hard journey, but, fortunately, I'm finished with my diet and loving life even more now that I can actually get around to exploring it.
I always try to keep you guys updated on my comings and goings with plenty of pictures.

~Cyn

Sucha lovely outfit! 
And impressive work with the weightloss!

[jcastick]

Going WAY off topic.....but cool lower Cabinets!!! 

[Cynful_Delirium]

Yeah, this is the same house that Vixen Lamoore herself lived in for many years. It was built by an artist, so there's nothing too "normal" in this place.
Breast milk doesn't seem to be a problem for me.. I first thought it was my birth control, but then after some extensive research, I found out that it's another medicine I take that I have to take for the rest of my life. I find that when I pump, I can usually get up for four ounces. It's fun to have this side effect that is titled under "leaky breasts".
When I first decided to get my implants, I wanted to get down to my goal weight (which is this weight that I'm at now), but ever since finding out that I need a mandatory lift with my big implants, I'm still saving up some moo-lah. It'll happen, just not as soon as I'd once hoped.
It's so much fun to have you guys respond to what I put up here on the BEA! I love talking to everyone on here. Everyone is so nice and treats me so well that I find myself on this site a little more often then I originally thought I would be. I'm not complaining because besides talking to some great people on here, I get to do some research on breasts implants and procedures from some very knowledgeable people on here. I may not post all of the time, but that doesn't mean that I'm not looking in to some things about bigger breasts.
Until then, I will continue doing research and dreaming about my plumper breasts.

~Cyn

[Poli]

We love having you around here at BEA, atleast I do haha.
And I hope things will work out fine for you and your cool ("milky") boobs 

[Cynful_Delirium]

Aww, thanks Poli, I love being here. It always makes my day coming on here and posting, chatting it up with you fellas.
Okay! So, it's been a loooooong time since I last posted, but I have a good reason! It's booby related.
I'm trying to get my implants a little sooner then anticipated. Y'see, I went to the doctor a long while ago and I've been anxious about getting my bigger breasts ever since I saw him. I've had dreams on my recovery and taking the bandages off for the first time and the "after" look of my new, improved titties. It's been driving me crazy! So, finally, I saved up enough money for a regular breast augmentation.. However, that is not what the doc advised me to do..
He told me that I would need a lift, nipple movement (the highest they can go without causing any damage), and then the implants. Well, I've never told anyone on here the price for all of this because it kind of embarrassed me.. I mean, it's a pretty high price and it made me feel like that's the dollar amount that my breasts are messed up.. So, here goes..
$10,000. Yes, I said $10,000 for my transformed breasts. And that's a deal, a good price. Yikes..
Well, I don't have that much money and I probably won't for a while, so I thought that if I could just get some temporary implants to kind of fill out my saggy, deflated breasts, then it would be okay.. For now. I'd still go back for the lift, obviously, but another thing about my surgery is that I will have not only the lift marks, but a huge anchor scar. I'm not really looking forward to that..
So, I e-mailed the doc and he said that we could talk options in person, but he still recommends I get the overhaul done.
I'm torn because I want my new breasts now! (I'm so impatient) I've been wanting to fix my knockers since I got my breasts. Yes, they came in deflated and saggy.
When I asked how in the world I was so 'blessed' (sarcasm intended) to get such screwed up breasts, my doc explained that it's genetics. Lucky me.
Anyway, I'm trying to get just implants for now, go back for the $10,000 lift later, much later and be done with it all. I'm getting a nose job too, so even if he still highly recommends that I get the big shi-bang, I can at least get that done while I'm there. Either way, I'm going to get a bandage somewhere on my body before I leave.
What I can't wrap my head around is.. Well, if you put a big implant into a saggy breast, I mean a really big implant, shouldn't that fill it out some? My doc, the way he's talking, doesn't believe that, but I can't fathom why it wouldn't fill it out, even some. What do you guys think?

~Cyn

[Poli]

Sounds really expensive when I read about others surgeons..
Great thing there's some real good experts here at the forum
I hope everything will work out the way you want it.. You're a nice girl and deserves nice stuff!

[bignatslover]

What do you guys think?

My vote is a resounding NO LIFT and BIG IMPLANTS.

Your doc just isn't thinking like a boobman.  He has confused you with the whiney types of women who wish for tiny, high-up perky breasts.  You're not looking for an adolescent look, and neither are we.  You want va-va-va voom.  And so do we.  If they touch your thighs when you are sitting down, that is a good thing, not a bad thing.  He doesn't get it.  I think huge implants is the perfect solution, and is simpler than paying for combo surgeries.

[bignatslover]

Cyn, now that a week has passed while we could all think about the benefits of your getting extra large implants in place of a lift...

I haven't wavered for a moment.  I still think you should get extra large implants and no lift.

It seems most surgeons assume everyone wants to look like a lifted-implanted D-cup Hooters girl.  But I like what Busty Heart did - she got huge implants instead of a lift.  In fact, I have a picture that compares how much better she looks than even the best hooters that Hooters has to offer:

[Cynful_Delirium]

Awww, thanks Poli for those nice things you said. I'm too stubborn to quit, so I keep on trying! Hee hee!
I agree with you completely, bignatslover! My very first preference is not the perky, little teacup breasts. Oh no, I want just a more normal shape of breasts with just some added "oomph!". I did explain that to my doctor, however, and he has told me that he would do just the lift. Unfortunately, he is now on a two week vacation, so it's back to the waiting game in regards to getting my breast work done. I tried to get him to quote me a price as well and since he was on vacation, I talked with his secretary and she seemed a bit confused on the price. So, I'm just waiting for the doc to get back from vacation and some estimates on my breast implants. I hate waiting, but I'm sure it'll be worth it in the end.

~Cyn