When I saw all that news and footage about the reduction, for the next few days I had a really sick feeling in my stomach. Part of it may have been selfish, but I for certain felt a deep sorrow that she felt like that, it was so upsetting to see her cry like that.
But thinking further, that reduction show is very much a part of what some people call "grief porn", which includes a lot of reality talent contestants with sad back stories, "hard lives" books often about people who had a wretched early life (and it is often thought that many of these books are filled with lies and exaggerations to to make it more miserable), there are lots of documentaries and magazines filled with this stuff. Some of it is well intentioned, but there is also a lot of deeply questionable stuff too.
I dont have any real reason to be assured in what I say here but I think she was probably had a conflicting two opposite extremes of feeling about her body. I dont believe all that enthusiasm in her porn was 100% faked and I dont think she was entirely unhappy about being different (her tumblr suggested she liked a slightly outsider-ish culture, I think some of her fellow models in the more gothy stuff would positively describe themselves as "freaks"), the Jessica Rabbit tattoo also suggests a certain attitude.
In some Score magazines I bought semi recently (Score is weird in that for a long time it prints photos and interviews that were done years ago as if they had just happened recently, no mention that she had a reduction; in the world of Score readers who have no internet or do but somehow ignore the rest of the busty sites, she is seeming to still pose for them in all her busty horny glory. And I've never seen them print any letters mentioning models who do not pose for them) Dors Feline was quoted saying some quite provocative stuff that no-one forces you to say (many models interviewed are more reserved), they also said she was flashing bystanders on the beach; this could be made up but Elliot James said on this very forum a couple of years ago that he didnt want to be like other magazines that made up phony stuff that the models clearly didnt say (I'm amazed Juggs still was doing that last time I bought it. It is silly).
Also odd is that no-one has mentioned an early content where a guy was groping her, fingering her and cumming on her (I had to check Myboobsite to see if my memory was fooling me, but that stuff was real. The only things is I remember seeing photos of a dick cumming on her but I cant find that, maybe it was fake cum flung on her).
I recall someone asking what her ideal cup size was on her tumblr, she answered something like "a C-cup, so I can be a real girl". At the time, I assumed this was sarcasm, because she was often very sarcastic.
But what I'm saying is that I think the two opposite extremes were possibly exaggerated expressions of what she really felt. These type of tv shows are known for asking people to ham up their grief because crying makes good tv for a lot of people. Maybe the crying was totally unprovoked but the idea of that artist very quickly convincing her of her general beauty was silly (I'm an artist and I believe in the immense power of art, but I didnt believe in this). She had a huge amount of fans who loved everything about her, telling her how great all the things about her are, because in this community, going on about how great someones breasts are for so long seems redundantly obvious. I'm baffled by people saying she is just plain and fat now, I think aside from her ruined breasts, she's still an abnormally beautiful woman.
I wonder how the fellow boob models who posed with her and went on the Score holidays with her felt about it?
I dont feel that bad about models going into the business wanting reductions if their mind is made up. It is nice having records of their former wonders for people to enjoy for a very long time. I know a lot of women who dont like the way they look wouldnt want it recorded, but others who do it for other reasons might.
I remember reading in an early Eden Mor Score magazine appearance, she went in wanting a reduction, but I thought maybe this was calculated to get a response from readers. Because the response was said to be enormous.
What happened to that old Suicide Girl model Ember? Last I heard, she wanted a reduction but they couldnt grant her the non-scarring reduction she wanted because she didnt have much fat to be sucked out them (or something like that), she was upset about this and I never seen anything of her after. The odd thing is, I havent seen anyone post old pics of her in years, people used to be crazy about her.