I have to say something that will probably sound crazy.
I find her, now, to actually be TOO perfect.
Not in the context that I'm too much of a lowlife for her to ever countenance me as an option, no.
She's crossed some ethereal line to where she's inhumanly attractive, so much so that she seems unreal - like some kind of perfected android or something. When she wears glasses now, it slightly mitigates the problem, humanizes her a bit. But otherwise, she now just leaves me cold, with almost a hint of strangeness and unease.
I remember pictures of her, early in her thread, when she was younger and less polished - photos taken in her home I believe, like that one where she is eating an icecream sandwich or similar. She looked cute, sweet, extremely beautiful there - but Real. Still quite human, in a sense.
I guess I just can't wrap my head or heart around this level of flawlessness. It weirds me out to find this out about myself, I wouldn't have expected it.
To be honest, if she ever read this comment, I would probably be embarrassed, and feel sorry if this hurt or saddened her - because I'd had the impression from those early photos that she's a nice person. And of course, it's more than obvious that she has worked painfully hard to perfect those looks. I would have to suggest that the problem is me, not her.
But I would want to ask the question: is it possible to go to far, to actually be Too beautiful, to the point of seeming unreal.
-D'Artagnian
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