Thanks everyone! *hi Bambi*
I'm just being a big baby, i know it will be ok. Thanks for the advice about not reading anything negative right now. My cousin called me last night (she has been very supportive up till now) and started giving me the line about silicone being so bad for you, causing chronic fatigue etc...I've done enough research that i feel comfortable with my choice, but i hate hearing that stuff!
I'm almost looking forward to the recovery, its going unconcious that scares me, like i wont wake up.
I did have a tubal, and a hernia operation, & came out of both fine, so im not really worried about anethesia...i don't know, if i was getting a reduction, or something for my health instead of just for my pleasure, would i feel as guilty? And people get nose jobs all the time, no one looks down on them, right?
I really really want the big boobies, and i KNOW it will make me feel 100% happier and more confident, not to mention how much fun it will add to my love life...(which is already pretty darn good doc

props to you, honey)
but i can't shake the little bit of fear and guilt.
My sister just bought a $10,000 RV...now we arent campers, & i KNOW we'll get more use and fun out of our "recreational" toys. My parents arent giving her any grief...sheesh!
Anyway, thanks for the support. As soon as the big day has come and gone, i'll feel so much better!