in this forum for years everything i offer has been bad-mouthed, at least by some people. so of course the custom videos are not missing.
those who like what i do are almost all silenced here. out of solidarity, some could speak out, but that happens very rarely. disappointing. but this is probably the thanks for the 1400 posts i gave to this community back then. but keep on wondering why i am no longer active here 
some people here just don't realize how disrespectful the way i have been treated here for years, and some even do it on purpose.
There are always going to be trolls across every social media; here it is always those seeking to discourage posting by others while offering nothing positive themselves. They find offense in any post longer than a single sentence, perhaps because they cannot comprehend cohesive thought, an attention span deficit, or they just have an axe to grind, but I would not judge the entire BEA on the utterance and intolerance of the few.
I know I have said this before, but your entire story deserves told, simply because of the altruistic motivation. Never seeking the fame that was to follow, it is kind of like Beshinerella; fairy godmothers bestowing huge breasts on the innocent little girl which turn out to be the keys to her kingdom. We probably won't see Disney pick up on this idea, but that is their loss, and perhaps ours as well.
As for me, I remain fascinated by your amazing attitude as you have defined what boobie greed is, because it isn't just wanting bigger boobs, it is loving the the "big boob moments" as you call them, simply because the constant experiences are just such a positive reflection of your desires. I do tend to talk a lot about them because many people just do not notice, but I believe them to be so rewarding on your part, to feel and experience things only possible with immense breasts like yours. The average person probably thinks you tolerate these things, I think you absolutely enjoy these things.
I have witnessed the caustic comments on FB and other social media, but I would implore you to remember what you have said regarding your boobs, what other people think does not matter to me. I am not of the childish mindset that sees the internet with total anonymity and always view everything from the eyes of what I would say to the person themselves and I wish that more people would observe more tolerance and respect towards others. If everyone just stayed to respectful conversation rather than violate the 10 commandments of logical debate, we would be a lot better off.
No doubt, this forum does miss your personal touch and the little snippets of life you used to convey; the big boob moments, interests, and experiences. Just another reason I miss the blog; I think we all enjoy reading your personal take on things. It leaves us with nothing but our imagination as to what you may be thinking or experiencing every day, and as you no doubt have seen, I do tend to explore these things because they are just another amazing part of what being Beshine is.
Though, quite apparently, my efforts that contribute to keeping this thread alive and forefront upset others, they are displaying nothing but the political correctness troll attitude, where nothing matters beyond their narrow minded views of the world and they have no tolerance for anything or anyone not kowtowing to their demands. But their childish rants will not stop me because I truly believe you deserve to be honored and noticed. Beauty, attitude, and "big, round, and obviously fake boobs" as you expressed your dream, makes you the total package.