Life is funny on how it turns out. When I was a small boy I wanted to be a cowboy, a fireman, an astronaut and all the cool stuff in the TV shows from the 60's and yet now I work casino security. The pay is good and the work certainly nowhere as physically demanding as my father's paper mill job but nothing as I planned or thought of when I was a k1d. So I don't dwell on what could have been at 61, I do the best with what I've got. Life is so unpredictable. Besides, as my mom used to say, there is always somebody who is worse off than you and it is true. Everyday I deal with people at work who are homeless due to drug addiction or mental imbalance and while unpleasant, I get them out of the hotel so guests don't have to deal with them. Life is fragile. As long as you have your health, clothes on your back, a roof over your head and a little spending money after paying the bills, you ain't doing so bad.